# I mourn me #Unfinished [[I worry]] I am [[slowly]] loosing parts of myself. There is a script that many others seem to play as they age. They laugh less. They get less fit. They have less friends. They adventure less. They have less ambition. Over time I fear I am laughing less, exploring less, I doubt the accuracy of assesment. Recolection is too influenced by emotion to be certain. Also yesterday is kindof irrelevant. Am I worried about the story or am I worried about the experience? The experience is right now and I have a tremendous amount of control over right now. This might be that I am losing energy. As I write this, [[what would I say to a friend]] [[aging]] [[nostalgia]] [[Art is never finished only abandoned]] and [[I Em the art|I am the art]] so the worry is a little silly. Left to entropy, it feels like I might fizzle out. ## So how can I inoculate myself? Being 10% less eager to adventure seems to mean 80% less adventures. There is a list of things I use to enjoy that I no longer do. Much of this list. Be careful with narrative. ## Related - [[life is effort]] - Exercise #Caution with [[narrative]]. - [[growth mindset]] - [[Depression - the fog]] - [[I Em the art]] - [[when you complain you ignore the whole]]