I think I learned to question, doubt, hate, avoid, ignore, and fight the disciplinarian(s) in [[my youth]]. I didn't have the power to make those disciplinarians patient, kind, or skillful. I coped they way I coped. So I had been coping with traumatic and abusive "discipline" and then I started increasingly noticing the world was full injustice and everywhere I looked I had no reason to trust authority. Authority was something I was to avoid in order to stay and feel safe. ## Regarding my internal disciplinarian Do I need one? Do I have one? Does it need to be a strained internal relationship? How does my disciplinarian show up? How does it physically manifest? What parts does it interact with? What do those interactions look like. What would a healthy relationship with it look like? Copy There is a healthy, helpful, and appropriate role for discipline. Many of my wonderful qualities are likely I had two optionsA lot of good game ## Related: - [[internal family systems]] - [[obstinate]] - [[unfairness]] - 𝄞 Don't fucking tell me what to do𝄞 - #Child