# Suicide
[[if you are hesitating to reach out to friends something is wrong]]
If you are ever thinking about suicide, don't hide it. Tell someone.
I have experienced suicidal thoughts. Many have.
Suicide is s scary topic. I am scared to focus on it here and that comes from love. Love of life. Love of you.
I have a standing plan to get thai food before suicide.
## History with suicidal thoughts..
- Teenager - saved by the understanding that it was temporary and I was going to leave home soon
- Late teens / early 20s - Depressive episodes
- Intense and debilitating pain that made my life seem not worth living
- 30s - doesn't ever really come up
## #Audio/Song...
- No lies just love
## Related
- [[Depression - the fog]]
- #Meta/DearReader
- [[meme]]
- [[surrender]]
- [[memento mori]]