# Stolen Focus and Phones
There’s a weight in my pocket.
Hard and humming.
A rectangle of endless elsewhere.
It promises poems
soft words on a walk
but every line breaks
when I try to breathe and scroll.
I reach for it
like a habit,
not a choice.
Fingertips brushing glass
instead of bark,
instead of fur,
instead of the warm wind’s hush.
It is a key
to every room I am not in.
And I walk through those rooms
while trees sway beside me
unwatched.
The phone is a tool
But so is a bayonet
So is a leash.
It joins me in bed
before my thoughts have woken.
It sits with me in the bathroom,
as if I'm never alone.
Even solitude,
my last secret thing,
is shared with it.
And what does it give me?
A feed.
Of everything but what I need.
Sometimes
I just put my hand in my pocket
to feel it.
Not to use it.
Just to know it’s there.
A modern rosary
for a god of interruption.
A security blanket
stitched with tiny thorns.
And I need it.
And I hate it.
And I carry it like a second skin
that doesn’t breathe.
So I write this down
while walking through a park
that I can barely see
because I am looking
into a little window.
Avoiding the fact
I'm missing the world